Am I " growing up"? Or...is it that my Being, in some way, is more open to what is happening around me?

On my last trip to Durban Kzn, I wrote about how different it was to previous visits.

That sense of something different has followed me to CT.

I cannot put my finger on it but, the fullness / richness / realness of what is presenting itself has me thinking that I have eventually truly ...arrived!

Arrived???

Where???

Not really sure. But, could it be...

So. End of last year was that "brain drain" , "physical fatigue" and "spiritual emptiness" ( posted on another thread), feeling infringed upon by everything...that had me crawling and hiding in my little safe space.

Is this the true re-emergence? The awakening? Realizing no matter the challenges, the uncertainties, the financial difficulties and the comeback, the loss of a dear dear father does not mean the end of my world...and even though many may consider the sensual space as a choice taboo, knowing it suits me perfectly well, alongside everything else professional playing itself out in my life, makes me realize that most probably this was a path mapped long before I knew and...on this path, new successes shall come to fruition, most unexpected and never imagined.

Today, once again, another person crossed my path that will leave their imprint on my life forever and knowledge shared never to be forgotten.

Does it matter how "Purplish" my choices may be? Not at all. Education knows not to only be found in the confounds of a school classroom and wisdom shared can even be found in indukgences between the sheets of a bed or on a sexy site like this one.

And thus...whatever it is that is following me around and making me feel deliciously one with my real self, soft and pliable and hungry to absorb ...I hope it stays for a very long time!

RB.

Ps. To YOU....Thank YOU!

On 2022-04-22 22:45:51 Russian Bridgitte said:

And thus...whatever it is that is following me around and making me feel deliciously one with my real self, soft and pliable and hungry to absorb ...I hope it stays for a very long time!

RB.

Lady Bridgitte,

I'm sure that is something that will stay with you forever. It has merged with your Soul...

Thank you for this post - it gives me Life!

Hugs & Love
CGD

Greetings dearest Claudia.

I like the idea that it has merged with my inner Being,my Soul.

I like my Soul.

Thank u for ur comment!

But...a little share how some may not get it.

I was asked how come I occupied this sensual space.

I explained to save my sorry ass as I was not ready to fuck up my children's lives and education nor lose all my hard-earned assets all do to a hefty hefty mistake I had made.

"But that was 2015. Surely u must be out of that shit?? Why u still doing this??"

I simply replied..."sorted and dusted long ago but, why not."

And that is exactly it.

I am sure a time will come when new paths will be traveled BUT, this path now is too engaging, both financially and metaphysically rewarding to walk away.
And that is what adds deeper value to spaces we choose and occupy...making it ours and shining bright till another path shall be mapped.

Otherwise imagine the torture.

Hold u most dear Ms CGD.

x

On 2022-04-23 13:20:50 Russian Bridgitte said:
Greetings dearest Claudia.

I like the idea that it has merged with my inner Being,my Soul.

I like my Soul.

Thank u for ur comment!

But...a little share how some may not get it.

I was asked how come I occupied this sensual space.

I explained to save my sorry ass as I was not ready to fuck up my children's lives and education nor lose all my hard-earned assets all do to a hefty hefty mistake I had made.

"But that was 2015. Surely u must be out of that shit?? Why u still doing this??"

I simply replied..."sorted and dusted long ago but, why not."

And that is exactly it.

I am sure a time will come when new paths will be traveled BUT, this path now is too engaging, both financially and metaphysically rewarding to walk away.
And that is what adds deeper value to spaces we choose and occupy...making it ours and shining bright till another path shall be mapped.

Otherwise imagine the torture.

Hold u most dear Ms CGD.

x

I do believe if one listens and reads closely the torture does not need to be imagined, it play out right in front of our eyes. It's the rarest of souls that have the cognitive ability and mindfulness to keep their souls intact in this industry. I've had contact with a few such individuals , and the impression have always, without fail, been a lasting one.
You are obviously such a rare creature RB.

On 2022-04-22 22:45:51 Russian Bridgitte said:
Am I " growing up"? Or...is it that my Being, in some way, is more open to what is happening around me?

On my last trip to Durban Kzn, I wrote about how different it was to previous visits.

That sense of something different has followed me to CT.

I cannot put my finger on it but, the fullness / richness / realness of what is presenting itself has me thinking that I have eventually truly ...arrived!

Arrived???

Where???

Not really sure. But, could it be...

So. End of last year was that "brain drain" , "physical fatigue" and "spiritual emptiness" ( posted on another thread), feeling infringed upon by everything...that had me crawling and hiding in my little safe space.

Is this the true re-emergence? The awakening? Realizing no matter the challenges, the uncertainties, the financial difficulties and the comeback, the loss of a dear dear father does not mean the end of my world...and even though many may consider the sensual space as a choice taboo, knowing it suits me perfectly well, alongside everything else professional playing itself out in my life, makes me realize that most probably this was a path mapped long before I knew and...on this path, new successes shall come to fruition, most unexpected and never imagined.

Today, once again, another person crossed my path that will leave their imprint on my life forever and knowledge shared never to be forgotten.

Does it matter how "Purplish" my choices may be? Not at all. Education knows not to only be found in the confounds of a school classroom and wisdom shared can even be found in indukgences between the sheets of a bed or on a sexy site like this one.

And thus...whatever it is that is following me around and making me feel deliciously one with my real self, soft and pliable and hungry to absorb ...I hope it stays for a very long time!

RB.

Ps. To YOU....Thank YOU!

Oh how this post had me in my feels!
Profoundly beautiful

On 2022-04-23 17:11:17 StaalBurger48 said:
On 2022-04-23 13:20:50 Russian Bridgitte said: Greetings dearest Claudia.

I like the idea that it has merged with my inner Being,my Soul.

I like my Soul.

Thank u for ur comment!

........

I do believe if one listens and reads closely the torture does not need to be imagined, it play out right in front of our eyes. It's the rarest of souls that have the cognitive ability and mindfulness to keep their souls intact in this industry. I've had contact with a few such individuals , and the impression have always, without fail, been a lasting one.
You are obviously such a rare creature RB.

Dear Staalburger48

I know what I shall write is heavy...but introspective is what this post is all about.

It is so easy to "sell" ones Soul in a space where the greatest success and satisfaction, for the client, comes from the SP who gives of herself completely. That means she allows herself to be who she is, honest and sincere and at the "mercy" at WHOEVER walks thru her door.

And thus to quote u..."have the cognitive ability and mindfulness to keep their souls intact in this industry"...is an important principle NEVER to forget even when flying high and thinking one is the bees knees and the best fuck in town.

Like anything, "truth" knows to wear many different shades and much is said and shared when emotions are high and the cock hard.
To know to understand that, enjoy it but, leave it there and not get carried away by it, does take much reminding and some work.
Plus...knowing to say NO or deviating off the path of what may suit one, without the fear of losing custom, takes strength and understanding of self.

To know to be a "Brand" does not mean one has to be EVERYTHING others are doing and asking. That is when one starts losing oneself. Of course, here, I must add being dynamic is important BUT at what cost?...and how to adapt without losing one's self.

This space , I have said before, requires broooooaaad shoulders and strong minded heads and intelligence deep on all levels.

And most of all it needs kindness and gentleness toward self . I wonder how many of us understand this principle:((

And last....thank u for seeing me for what I am. It is not a brag.

I do like and love what defines me and when I stumble I ain't scared to be my own critic and not sweep my own shit under the carpet and pretend .

Why do I share on a sexy site? Hopefully those that may be feeling crappy know it is OK and they not alone.

Now...hurry over.

RB.

On 2022-04-23 17:31:20 Cleopatra said:
On 2022-04-22 22:45:51 Russian Bridgitte said: Am I " growing up"? Or...is it that my Being, ......


Oh how this post had me in my feels!
Profoundly beautiful

Dearest Cleopatra

I hug u close close and thank u for feeling my words and knowing what I mean .