A post i penned on my Blog last night ...considering the conversation live at present on the forum.
"...Now imagine a space where one is the host to many a different character. Where one has the chance to partake of personal satisfaction sensual and in turn engage ones guest in matters of mind and body intimate.
Knowing the fine balance of how much to give without being overwhelming and at the same time not seeming detached. A space where the ultimate should be a visitor leaving satisified that his needs have been attended to and in no way impeding on matters private relating to his home and family.
A space considered taboo by society for many reasons yet having its space in that society and serving a purpose. A purpose one cannot condone but, since it is present a few rules should be adhered to if possible.
Many a married man or attached man will partake in intimate services offered. The reasons for this dabbling is open to discussion on many levels and thus it would be a farce to generalise, in a few sentences as to the reasons why. This is a topic on its own.
And occupying a space as a provider of services sensually intimate, please take note...not sexually intimate.....i find the onus rests on the Service Provider to ensure certain boundaries are not crossed.
In the short space of time that i have employed myself as a Service Provider, i have made one cardinal mistake allowing a client to think he had fallen in love with me, knowing somewhere in the very recesses of common sense, that it was driven by a space adventurous, a freedom of expression with no responsibilities further than the moments shared on an irregular basis. The dabbling of intimacies secret.
All of a sudden my conscience began to gnaw at me. And as much as i would have loved to return the ardour and scream YES! we can make a go of it....i knew he was a good man, a family man that didnt deserve confusion and uncertainty....a dangerous game played detrimental potentially to both of us.
Very quickly i learnt how easy it is to confuse certain states of emotion and realised the onus resting on me was a huge one.
My giving of self, my sincere share, my care to want to know and connect did not give me the licence to be anything more than a momentary sensual relaxing escape from harsh realities and responsibilities and sometimes even boredom or simple curiosity.
How broad a Service Providers shoulders must be. How in tune with herself and that of her visitor she must be. How careful she must be that intimacies shared emotions felt are not taken out of context but, rather, the beauty of the moment remains in that moment.....till next time it is shared again.
How important it is to know oneself and stand firm in ones beliefs and convictions....sincere and honest in their share"
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