I saw a WG yesterday in Fourways/Bryanston and whilst chatting at the end of the punt she mentioned that she is working for a Nigerian dude and the issue of drugs etc came up. The setup did not look like a Nigerian set up (I have the picture of a seedy flat in Hatfield when I think of Nigerians in this business).

This got me thinking about this whole cycle of exploitation of WGs and how I am a key part of this cycle by providing the demand in the supply and demand chain.

Have been punting for more than 20 years - a few times a year when the urge arise - and have been looking for a reason for a while to stop.

I guess that I have found my reason to quit - I am actually feeling quite disgusted at myself. I am happily married with 2 kids and should not be fucking around like this or contributing to the exploitation that happens in this business.

I have been naive trying to chase that perfect GFE and realized (guess I always knew it but the small head was trying to dominate the big head) that this is all commerce and commerce at its worst. My lack of control of my lust is actually contributing to the demise of another soul. Sounds dramatic and strong but that is how I felt when I got up this morning - so pls forgive the dramatization.

Absolutely no judgment on anyone and I understand that this business helps some WGs sustain themselves without the issue of drugs etc coming in but I have decided that I am taking the first step to quitting which will be to delete my login credentials which I use to check out a WG before a punt.

Am writing this as part of my carthasis and also to remind myself not to get involved in this sick cycle the next the urge arises (which I know it will) but will hopefully read this and remind myself why I should not punt - I should rather contribute that money to some cause to help people in this human trafficking business and have a wank to get the lust out of my system.

Take care and be safe all.