I feel this. I didn't and won't watch the vid. In the last 20 years I have lost 2 very close friends to suicide (one at the house I was renting from her) and my bestie committed suicide slowly by starving and drinking herself to death.
We never know the private torment people go through. The one friend was a part-time wg. And one day I had a booking with a guy who worked with her husband. He told me the stories that were running around the workshop re her suucide. He was utterly surprised when I told him what really went down. The depression, the self-destructive behaviour, the rape, the domestic violence in her 1st marriage. How distraught her hubby was when he found an old newspaper and found my number. He called to ask if she was by me cos he couldn't find her nor their cellphones to call ANYBODY. This client was shocked cos totally different stories were rife at work. People THINK they know. Several of our own have taken their own lives. The one I never met but knew her personally. Teddy. We had deep convos after she left the business and it often felt as though I knew everything about her, I just hadn't met her. It broke me. There are people who care, genuinely care.
Now to the ladies here- reach out to one of us when you start feeling suicidal, not drugs or alcohol. Personally, due to my experience and dealings with 3 suicides I am in no position to help but I can point you in the right direction. There is no shame in feeling mentally, emotionally and psychologically fragile. There is help available out there. If you need to be on meds, then so be it. Nothing wrong with that. I am on anti-anxiety meds. And let me tell you I am in so much of a better headspace. I have my drinking under control and I just cope better with day to day functioning. Don't be afraid of the judgement. We are all a bit crazy and some of us need meds or therapy or both. There are many therapists online. You don't have to suffer alone. In fact you don't have to suffer, finish en klaar.
We all have our vices, never be ashamed of admitting to them cos thats how healing and recovery starts. This industry isn't easy but you can hrow here There are life lessons you will never learn outside this purple cloud.

On 2022-05-31 21:48:47 Russian Bridgitte said:

One hears of the passing of many SP's and i always hope their Soul is at rest, no matter the circumstance of their passing.

RB.

So which sp has died now?

On 2022-06-01 16:26:39 original-casanova said:
On 2022-05-31 21:48:47 Russian Bridgitte said:
One hears of the passing of many SP's and i always hope their Soul is at rest, no matter the circumstance of their passing.

RB.




So which sp has died now?

Is that ALL u got from my post and interests u?

ONE is toooo many...and stop acting stupid...and taking things out of context..unless u want to say "who the fuck cares about the hardships SP's go thru on a daily basis and u having f##king no idea about and simply want to boohoo the tragic passing of any lady on this site at any time!

And thus which one,are u?

The village idiot

Or the

Sensation seeker ???

Now spit at me...I don't F#cking care.

Learn to read and don't put ur idiotic spin on it!

Russian Bridgitte.

I have not seen the vid, not interest in looking at ot either.


All I know about this, is whats mention here, so if it seems that I am not sensitive to what happened, thats not my intentions.


I know it is said she attempted suicide, but was it really that, was she not forced to jump, or andattempt at fleeing from someone, or has she admitted that it wasa fail attempt.

There's this guy around my age,who I met at family functions once or twice,& at gigs I assisted in when I was younger.

Never had a deeper convo other than "howzit,nice to see you again", & who's sister was in the same standard and school as me.

For the last 10-12 years,I've passed his house at least once a week,on my way to deliveries to stores where he lives.Always wondered if I should pop in & say hi,but never did.

He sang (like Adam Sandler from The Wedding Singer) at some of these functions,& I'd assist in the lighting & sound engineering at these functions.

Once,during him singing,the background music stopped as the supply tripped,& it took us a few seconds to correct it.

Of course,this threw him off his performance,but he continued while his mic stopped sounding,like a pro.

The seasoned performers,standing with me in the sound box,(who were on next after him,)began mocking him as this happened,as well as when he returned after his song in front of him.

I witnessed his disappointed look,as he realized he'd never be part of their group.

Since I'd worked with these guys many times before,& had lots of partying,post-show, with them,I laughed along,so I'd too,feel part of the "kool-krowd".

This evening,coming back from work,I learnt of his passing this morning,from an OD,after years of battling depression & addictions we all know too well.

If only I'd have followed my gut & knocked on his door.Maybe I'd have realized he was battling & could have helped him somehow.

Too late for that.And I feel big sadz right now.

But its never too late to try & improve myself,be kinder,more thoughtful,speak less & do more.

I feel grateful I can at least get that out here in a community of strangers,not for reacts,not for,sort of Facebook likes,but because there's a space for punter & provider both here,& we are still a community tho.

Bbw Nadia you are my shining star in this dark purple world....

I love your wisdom Madame.

Thank you.

I didn't watch the video as well...

On 2022-06-01 19:32:07 Lalaa No.1 said:
Bbw Nadia you are my shining star in this dark purple world....

I love your wisdom Madame.

Thank you.

I didn't watch the video as well...

Very seldom that we do agree, but on this I have to.

Nadia is such a wise lady, never a bad word to say, always the one to offer "sound advice", straight to the point, with no hidden agendas.

Forsyth P Jones
I know that feeling. I know with my bestie who killed herself slowly by starvation and alcohol, I did what I could. The other 2 I always wonder too and thats why I kinda feel I cannot help anybody who is suicidal but rather point them in the right direction. I am in contact with a support group online for depression and anxiety and although I am not suicidal or depressed, my anxiety shoots through the roof at times. I have been on a few fb groups and I join and after a few months I know I am ready to move on. The group I am part of now is a hard one for me. I have been there longer than any others and I now know where my injuries are worst. Recovery is a long journey and some never get fully recovered. I always think if only my late friends had reached out and someone had taken them seriously or if only they had gotten the right help sooner. On my personal fb page I will not keep quiet about depression and mental illness and abuse of any sort and right now thats all I can do. I make a lot of people from my past VERY uncomfortable and that is my aim.
You can't make a difference to the gent who died, but you can make a difference to the next one passing your way. There are way more people battling issues than we realise.
Kooni, you hit on something that I hadnt thought about. Was it actually an attempted suicidal? We won't know for sure. Could have been forced, could have been tripping on chemicals, mental illness, each of which is equally serious. We just know what was reported.

Kooni and Lalaa, thank you, I believe I am too dumb to have ulterior motives. (Thats what my friend and my mom always say.)

On 2022-06-01 19:38:58 Kooni said:



Very seldom that we do agree, but on this I have to.

Baby steps.....

Next....3sum....

On 2022-06-01 08:04:11 Sloppy Poppy said:
On 2022-05-31 23:37:41

Can we just be kind to one another please, think before we talk.

Yup. Always. You just don't know what someone is going through. Your comment could make or break them..

Nadia and Lala have hearts of solid gold.