Posted: 2016-08-20 15:32:37
The real has become real. The formalities complete. The space is mine.
The lease signed. WOWEEEE!!!
A new set of feelings has set in.
Shortness of breath.
A tingling in the nape of my neck.
Sweaty palms.
An urgency to address the long list of items and tasks.
A Requestioning of decisions made.....choice of colour scheme....items chosen.
High heels off....sneakers on....revisiting stores....feels strange being flat footed....the sun setting too quickly....where has the day gone!
Yet.
There is a sureness of thought.
A clarity clearer than glass.
A sharpness sharper than a diamond...a truth ringing loud, a task i had given myself just over a year ago...
"Baby-girl. U have hit the wall head on...falling into an abyss so deep, standing on the precipice of losing your sanity and all else you had worked for. A business decision gone very wrong.
WTF!!!!
Who cares!!"
And in the process of re-inventing myself , i found a newer more assured me emerging, who was always there....just waiting for the right platform to emerge.
A me that always aspires to the finer things in life.
A me that always aspires to people who visualise success, work hard for it and guzzle it down with passion and zest.....a me that again just has to get back to where she knows to be. Hungering for the beauty of all life has to offer....even the shit.
What an wonderful anomoly.
Me and my degrees in a profession shunned by society and disrespected on all levels.
Damn.
Near perfect!!!
How wrong people can be......and this applies to me too....before i entered this space.
Just goes to show.
Dont judge a book by its cover.....
My home at peace.....my sanity restored, my security growing.
Xxx.
B.