Simple MATHS

,,2get,, and ,,2give,,

Creates many problems
SO JUST DOUBLE

,,4get,, and ,,4give,,
Solves many problems
Simple

That what I do

Sorry

Love Alina

Dearest Veronica

Amazing share on your battle and keep on winning. I am myself an addict and have had the pleasure of celebrating 6 years clean and sober recently.

For me it has been a hard fought battle. I'd used different drugs from liquor, kat, coke, all sorts of x and hallucinogens until I ran into crack cocaine. I always thought I was in control and would use copious amounts on regular binges without seemingly having any side effects. Until I started smoking rocks.

I just about destroyed every relationship I had through the incessant lies and deceit, constant betrayal and manipulation of any and everyone around me. I was quite a disgusting and despicable individual masquerading as a amicable, polite gent with a quick smile and ready laugh.

Today I'm addicted to nicotine. That's my daily fix. I enjoy a sensual encounter whether paid for or not. But I'm constantly aware of the monster that lurks within me patiently waiting for me to fall. I've gradually regained and rebuilt myself and meaningful relationships. I'm by no means perfect and still face my demons on a daily basis however I face them sober and with a clear mind. So far I've survived.

All the best guys,hey everything happens for a reason

I hate drugs with all my heart,I have a cousin who almost died.and she lost the baby as she was taking drugs while pregnant.

my only addiction so far is dick and money,that's what I can't leave without.

Miss Vee and Sir Tappa Lot, your posts are very powerful, and a highly commend you both on your progress.

I cannot begin to understand your situations, as my drug use has never developed into an addiction. Having done coke for the first time, 16 years ago whilst living in South America, I moved on to e, Kat and mdma during the rave days, and found my drug of choice was coke. (Always as a social user)

It is interesting, as I can go for months on end without wanting a line, then if the situation arises, with a certain group of friends, Ill smash a couple of grams up my nose. And that will be it for the next few months.

I have witnessed, and lost many a friend to drugs, and count myself fortunate that my drug use is contained, and I am in control.

Joh this tread takes me way back. I used to use mandrax and weed a long time ago.

It's the reason I keep my distance from users. Today one of my kids smoke (secretly) but me not being a smoker I know.

Still don't know how to address the issue.

Anyways I rarely see people like wgs and punters alike not using. I'm past looking for obvious signs

The most quickest way to see if someone is an user is to assume it. For everything else you can give the benefit of doubt.

Look into a wgs eyes, if her pupils are dilated she's high on something.

Thats something I learned while I was in rehab. It's a medical fact-apparently.

Veronica Franco

I am humbled by you. I wish you everything of the best, in wrestling with and beating your demon. Because of your attitude and honesty with yourself, you are going to win this battle. You have incredible character.

My prayers and best wishes are with you.

xxx

Dear Veronica

I have read your post so so so many times. Whenever u disclose of yourself, i do not know why it touches me so.
Is it your honesty? Is it your courage to open up so raw and naked for all who read to feel and see and touch and ache in what you have written?
How u expose yourself...yes, as all have said, it takes courage to do that.

From the day i read your first post, i cringed, i laughed, i sneered, i LOVED everything u had to say.
I like and love people like u. U dont try be clever nor wise...yet both shine through so strong.

I am beyond humbled that u mentioned me...and have to admit, nearly choked on what i was chewing. How can i ever thank u for making me feel so good and a little befuddled.
Thank u for being u ...for u, like a few other people on this forum, keep reminding me what it means to be human and real.

i do hug u right now in my very Soul.

All of me.

xxx
S.

On 2016-11-22 18:39:06 Sibyl said:
@Veronica, I take my hat off to you for publicly sharing your struggle with addiction, you have my utmost respect.

Your straight forward and honest attitude, is something I have always admired in you, even when we initially clashed on the forum in the past.

You are a strong, beautiful woman and I wish you all of the best!

Thank You Sibyl.

I never clashed with you though, I recall some good whooping you gave me and my retaliation like a silly teenager that thought she knew it all and rebelled. lol. I bitched and moaned but I learned the wisdom behind your words over time and actually came to respect you very much. Your posts were among the few I would eventually bother to read when I was banned. After you left, this place became mundane and so the final embers of my esa addiction fizzled out.

I still say what I think, but I have learned to keep an open mind and to pick my fights. still a work in progress though.

Regards, V.

On 2016-11-22 21:45:35 Tappa Lot said:
Dearest Veronica

Amazing share on your battle and keep on winning. I am myself an addict and have had the pleasure of celebrating 6 years clean and sober recently.

For me it has been a hard fought battle. I'd used different drugs from liquor, kat, coke, all sorts of x and hallucinogens until I ran into crack cocaine. I always thought I was in control and would use copious amounts on regular binges without seemingly having any side effects. Until I started smoking rocks.

I just about destroyed every relationship I had through the incessant lies and deceit, constant betrayal and manipulation of any and everyone around me. I was quite a disgusting and despicable individual masquerading as a amicable, polite gent with a quick smile and ready laugh.

Today I'm addicted to nicotine. That's my daily fix. I enjoy a sensual encounter whether paid for or not. But I'm constantly aware of the monster that lurks within me patiently waiting for me to fall. I've gradually regained and rebuilt myself and meaningful relationships. I'm by no means perfect and still face my demons on a daily basis however I face them sober and with a clear mind. So far I've survived.

I grew up with a brother that was as you described, therefore, I tried to never take others down when self destructing. My addiction was a very lonely path, with my only company being undesirables that were mostly reaping what they sewed to be honest. I cannot say I was ever a despicable person because I hid in a corner like a scared little mouse most of the time while others took knocks at me and I allowed it, not believing I was worth any better!

On 2016-11-22 22:13:20 Cupid Stunt said:
Miss Vee and Sir Tappa Lot, your posts are very powerful, and a highly commend you both on your progress.

I cannot begin to understand your situations, as my drug use has never developed into an addiction. Having done coke for the first time, 16 years ago whilst living in South America, I moved on to e, Kat and mdma during the rave days, and found my drug of choice was coke. (Always as a social user)

It is interesting, as I can go for months on end without wanting a line, then if the situation arises, with a certain group of friends, Ill smash a couple of grams up my nose. And that will be it for the next few months.

I have witnessed, and lost many a friend to drugs, and count myself fortunate that my drug use is contained, and I am in control.

My Drug use was deliberate, not addiction. Substances are pretty easy for me to move away from if I move away from the lifestyle and people that provoke it! I'm stuffing my face with food and cigarettes right now to compensate for the boredom though, lol. I am bored as hell....thought I would be working but certain people are full of shit!