On 2020-06-25 07:47:22 Louise ( Miss Red) said:
We all get hurt and we manage to move on and find ways to cope with it.
Today I discovered a new level of hurting.
Making promises to me breaking them or breaking my trust hurts but I have learned that it is my expectations that got me hurt not the failure of that person to keep the promise or the trust.
But seeing your children hurt because of those things is a new level of hurt that I have not experienced before.
Not through failed marriage their father passing or everything else we went through as a family have I ever seen such pain in my child's eyes when he realized that someone has no intention of keeping a promise
What's worse is he would never have gotten his hopes and trust up so high if I was not the one that said it is okay this person is great he won't make promises he don't intend to keep.
The joke is on me I have ones again set my expectations to high and in the prosess got my kid let down.
2020 has really opened my eyes to how unbelievably naive and trusting and vulnerable I actually am behind this strong women face I hold out to the world.